About me: Tall

I am quite tall for a girl.

To be exact, I am 5' 8.75".

So, practically 5' 9''.

I used to hate it growing up. I stood out. I looked like a giant. I was already feeling awkward, and the height didn't help. It was weird with boys since so surprisingly many of my guy friends are either as tall as me or slightly shorter. People always commented on my height. I didn't feel delicate or girly.

All of these things did not help during puberty. lol.

However, now I love it.

It separates me from the rest of tiny Asian girls. I stand out! My legs are long. Clothes don't look awkward on me. I don't feel like a little girl. And I have a little more room to eat since I'm a giant anyways and have a bit more room to spare. And since I have began to lose weight, I love how my clothes fit on me, and on good days, I feel like a JC Penny model lol. And now I just wear heels if I want to wear them, and do not give a fuck about how people may think i'm a godzilla.

Obviously, it's not my physical appearance that  changed.
I feel more comfortable in my skin as I grow up.
I still have more internal things to work out to really remember what makes me beautiful and that I am beautiful no matter what.

But, I no longer hunch and slouch in an effort to make myself look a bit smaller (which had the affect of making me look like a hunchback.. not attractive). I no longer look at other petite girls, just wishing that I could shrink somehow. I stretch regularly to let my body grow or whatever it wants to do (even though I doubt that I'd be growing at this point).

I'm proud and thankful that I am who I am and I look as I do.
Of course, there are so many things I still would love to wave a magic wand and change about myself physically. However, that doesn't mean i'm going to recklessly get plastic surgeries or go cry to myself.
Everything in moderation. lol
I'm not too proud or resentful.

I'm just glad to be me.

I'm glad that I'm the only me.

Content,

Hayon

Movie: The Seven Year Itch

As much as I love Marilyn Monroe, I really haven't been exposed to her movies.

Before The Seven Year Itch, I've only seen Let's Make Love and All About Eve (in which she's not even a major character).

But, I do love her! I think she's the perfect combination of innocent and sultry.
Speaking of, I think the most attractive quality is that mixture of adorable and sexy. I suppose that whole "girl next door" concept is similar to this theory.

Anyways, I usually stay away from older movies (I know I know. sue me).
But, recently, I've been running out of movies to watch on Netflix that interested me. So, I figured, Why not a Marilyn Monroe movie?

In this particular film, she is literally the girl next door.
It's about a man who has been married for seven years, going through what is known as 'the seven year itch,' during which spouses lose interest in each other (well, men...).

Half the movie consists of the man letting his vivid imagination go wild with paranoia from being completely infatuated with the girl next door, Marilyn Monroe, while his wife and son are away on vacation in Maine.

This movie has that most famous Marilyn Monroe moment of her standing on an air vent with that beautiful white halter dress as the skirt flows wildly, exposing her legs.

Even though she is that typical dumb blonde in this movie with such naivete, Marilyn Monroe has that charm that make every man fall madly in love her.

It's such a tragedy that she passed away so young. But, at the same time, would she have been happy growing old and possibly losing that magnetism as time passes as the public loses interest and moves onto the next new thing?

Pondering,

Hayon