Finally Learning To Let Go

I am basically learning to let go of relationships that aren't working.

I am that person who usually holds on to EVERY SINGLE THING.
I hesitate before throwing away receipts. I have books from elementary school. I have all the letters, report cards, cards, pictures (that I haven't tragically lost yet. I still weep for those pics that have moved on to picture heaven), etc.

The whole process of letting things go started after graduation, I guess.
I finally threw away those pesky SAT books (even though after I threw them out, I started tutoring, of course. They could have been very useful -__-).
I finally threw away high school papers.
And I finally put an end to relationships that were either one sided or just not working out.

It takes me a lot to end friendships. But, I think i'm at that point in which I am trying to better myself constantly, and that task requires me to surround myself with good people who can guide me and support me. Some people were being shitty, and I got tired of waiting around for them to come around.

I think it's just damn time for me to say my goodbye's and move the fuck on with my life because I really deserve better.

Bye!

OFD: Not take the high road

So, I used to work for this online beauty retailer company that I will not name.
They had a financial hiccup, so the boss asked me to stop working until they can pay me what I am owed, a bit less than a 1000 bucks.

And that was in April.

I still haven't been paid!

And since I was promised a position and did (not to toot my own horn here, but) a GREAT JOB!
goddammmit, I did not look for another job.

And they have avoided my phone calls and emails, in which I am quite nice and polite.
WTF?

UGH.

Anyways, I am pissed and almost broke. I'd be really effing broke if it weren't for my loving parents lol.. thanks mom & dad!

So, I filed a wage claim.
My dad was like.. shouldn't you sue them or something?
I said no.. that doesn't seem right.

Well, I know I'm not going to do anything that's drastic or hurtful to the company or my former boss.
Why? because I am a wuss, and I believe in Karma so I try to steer away from hurting other people even if the same has been done to me.

But, if I lived in a world where I didn't have to suffer the consequences of my actions, I would be ruining the damn company somehow.

But, I don't know how nor do I want to take the time to come up with ways to fuck them over.

BUT, it would be nice to get back at people who made me suffer.
For once, I would like to not take the high road and just stoop down to the level of my enemies!

Unfortunately, I live in a world where there are consequences, and I am staying away from trashing the company.
Honestly, I just want my money and move on.

Defeated?

Hayon

OFD #1: Actually punch someone in the face

OFD: Only For Dreaming.

Yes, this blog is about actually doing things and not pushing things off. BUT, i'm also going to start a list that I just will not be able to do, but REALLY want to.

don't we all wish that sometimes we can just PUNCH someone in the face when they are being extra annoying? That fine line of annoying and tolerable has been crossed?

I probably feel this one too many times, but sometimes people just need to know that they are being "punchable."

HOWEVER, it is illegal to just punch people in the face (unless it's a fight that's being televised.. ugh so archaic. can I just express my dislike for MMA? my bf looooooves it. I, on the contrary to this post lol, dislike violence very much).

ALSO, I really hate physical violence. I avoid watching war-related, gangster/mafia-related movies, except for medieval stuff (but even then it's mostly just LOTR. I love LOTR).

AND, it would hurt ME to punch someone.. and I hate inflicting pain onto myself (sounds like common sense, but you would be surprised how many people don't mind pain.. like getting actual tattoos.. REALLY? I saw my friend getting it once, and it looked pretty damn painful and bloody).

But, seriously, sometimes I just really wish I can actually punch the annoying person in the face.

That's all,

Hayon

P.S. I am probably PMSing, and I have 2 finals on Monday that I have not been studying for even though I was "studying." UGH LIFE! yes yes some people have it harder, but being a selfish biatch that I am right now, I just cannot think of other people's suffering as much as my own. definitely first world problem. :( I will care extra next week when I am free from education!