Done: Meet the parents

After dating for 3 1/2 yrs, it finally happened! I met THE PARENTS of the bf.

It was his graduation, and I returned the favor and went to his grad, as he came to mine.

I made him a lei and errrthing. I should have taken a picture, but got lazy.
Anyhoos, I met them. The whole family actually. hahahaha

Of course, being the dummy (the nicest insult I can think of to describe him in this situation) that he is, he did not tell his sisters and told his dad the day of.

Imagine the awkwardness. lol.

I'm not that awkward usually, but it was a weird situation when I finally met them, especially since he was participating in his graduation, thus not present when I met them! ISNT THAT GREAT? lol

His mom knew, and I had already met his cousins; but, it was weird lol.

Then, I awkwardly introduced myself. AND THEN, after a while, I asked his sister, sooooo he didn't tell you I was coming huh.. hahahaha and she said, no he didn't, and I was really confused when I first saw you. HAHA.

oh god.

And then, he walked, and the ceremony ended surprisingly quickly since it was a major only ceremony (even though my satellite ceremony ran WAY TOO EFFING LONG).

And I told him, introduce me more formally, and thank you for making this situation really awkward for me. ha. ha.

And he did. And it was still kinda weird, but fine at the same time.

took pictures and went to roscoes and had chicken and waffle!

His family was really nice, and I am grateful to have finally met them.

And even though I know it took a lot for him to bring me to meet his fam, I still do not approve of the way he went about it. I find it quite inconsiderate of him, but he apologized and I'll get over it.

This is a post that makes me appreciate that people don't really read my blog. HAHA
It's more for my benefit of thinking out loud, rather than recording a monumental moment.

Though sometimes I feel like I've been through a lot and learned a lot, there are still so many things I am completely new at and feel uncomfortable about. Today was one of those days.

I never really got nervous about meeting new people and interacting, but since his family is important, I was concerned and felt awkward.
It must have drained me since I was exhausted when I came home and napped for a while right after. It also could have been due to the fact that the ceremony was at 10 AM, and the bf picked me up at like 8. WAY TOO EARLY.

But regardless of everything and how things went today, this meeting made things more real? I mean obviously the relationship is real, and I do love being in it. Also, we've talked about our future together and what not, and never really felt awkward about "the talk." But, the whole union of two families and so on and so forth seemed too soon? I am not at all concerned about just the two of us. However, I am extremely concerned about the possibility of joining our two COMPLETELY different families together, and the possible disaster and awkwardness the union may bring forth.
Seems overall rather unpleasant.
Something everyone wants to avoid.
Rather problematic.

This issue obviously isn't the only problem we have. It also isn't "our" problem; most couples experience similar issues regarding families.
But, it's still annoying to have to deal with it.

Relationships, romantic or platonic, are hard to begin with. But, add external issues that are beyond our controls. What do you end up with? A test of strength and commitment?

Why can't we all just get the fuck along?
And why are so many things "taboo" and "wrong"?
and on this note, growing up really blows.

Forever young?

Hayon 

Followup: Hug with lamy!

Well, I actually don't have the actual hug picture since it's on my hard drive (courtesy of Jenn, btw).

But, here's my graduation photo with him. I couldn't contain my excitement HAHA.

I look quite shiny.. HAHA whatever. And for my lack of hand situation... I was too excited about getting a hug that I kinda forgot what to do with it.. so, my hand is hidden.

But, yeaaaaaaa.

soooo happy,

Hayon

Random Thoughts: School

This whole not doing anything must be getting to my head, especially with the state of duress I have been under for ummm.. TOO LONG!

Because a moment ago, a thought popped into my head--that I want to go back to school. WTF?

I can justify this ridiculous (or genius??) notion with a few facts:

1. It is quite late. 1 AM right now.
2. I may be going insane.
3. I am constantly stressed these days.
4. I am going through my post grad freak out phase!
5. quarter-life crisis.
6. I actually miss school.
7. I actually enjoy learning. Just not exams and what nots.
8. I am bored out of my freakin mind.
9. All my TV shows are ending. So, I have nothing to do now..
10. I may be going insane. like.. seriously.
11. I AM SO BORED.
12. I do not have a legitimate career right now.
13. I hate not knowing what my next step is. As a student, I always knew.
14. I am just freaking out. no surprise here! hah
15. Masters/Ph.D. cap and gown are freakin awesome.
16. I like feeling smart... and actually getting smarter haha.

But, yea.  shit. I was pretty damn convinced until like an hour ago that I was DONE with education for a long time. But, maybe not?

I need more excitement in my life.

Slowly going insane,

Hayon

Done #5 & 6: Graduate from college! & ask my fav prof for a hug! lol

Yes, I did my 4 years of school. Fun but mostly a drag. I was getting really sick and tired of reading and writing about topics that did not interest me enough.

But, I DID IT!

Amazingly, I got through college! hahaha many times I would cry to myself or to others about my hatred and doubt.
But, today was my graduation, and I am glad.

I first resisted going to the grad. One of the most hateful events, in my opinion, is graduation. I hate it.

But, my parents insisted that I go, so I did.

Lovely Jenn and Sunny came, too! haha so thankful! (:

But, I honestly wasn't that excited the morning of or the week leading up to the graduation.
I was nervous and anxious. I was like.. what's the point? omg I won't know anyone. omg what if I look stupid? and just so many, now I realize, useless worries.

When I got there, I found a friend that I knew from class yay!
And Katie and Andrew just hung out with me in the line. haha 

But, before we entered the Shrine Auditorium, my heart was just racing.

Then, my favorite professor spoke (: <3 Lamy!

And people started getting called to the stage in this endless drone, then it was my turn!

By the time I stood up from my seat (even before that) I decided that I will ask Lamy for a hug. HAHA I knew it would be a weird thing maybe? But, I figured if not now, WHEN?

So, of course, this prof guy (that I don't even know), butchered my last name.. ugh. but that wasn't even a problem.

When I walked up to Lamy (our vice dean), he said, where have you been???
omggggggg he remembered me! hah!!! well, or not, but I'm just going to tell myself that he does.
and I immediately said CAN I HAVE A HUG? lol embarrassing, hindsight. but, he said of course! and gave me a hug. Then an awkward picture moment pursued, then I walked off, and Lamy said, Keep in touch! I said ok!!!!
lol

God. I am weird. But, I have some serious professor crushes. lol If you know me at all, you should know this.

Something about teachers/professors and their charisma, intelligence, and authority just GET TO ME.

anyways, then I was super happy that I got a hug and that I WAS OFFICIALLY A USC GRADUATE!
haha

stole from Jenn


Soon after, the graduation ended, and my family and friends and I went to Fogo de Chao and stuffed ourselves until we were KOed. (:

I am exhausted from multiple adrenaline rushes and just.. everything.
But, I'm still going to make more of my day!

craycray!

graduated,

Hayon

Fun #1: Change my wall

My walls in my room are pink.
One is pepto bismol pink and the rest are baby pink.
They were freakin awesome colors to choose at the end of elementary/beginning of jr high!!
But, I am now 22. It feels a bit outdated and a bit TOO girly.
And basically I'm sick of looking at the same colored walls that I've had since nearly a decade.

 (it's actually a bit lighter than this, but it's on the same family of pink)

So, I recently moved back home from living alone for 2 years near my school. At first I resisted. A LOT.
Couldn't imagine living back home with my parents for longer than a week. But, financially it just wasn't possible for me to live alone. :(

So I, with a lot of resistance, moved back!

who would have thought that it's SO GREAT?
I kinda love being home.
lol

Everything is nice, clean, and not dark and just great!
I get to see and hug my dog all the time!
My parents are not bad AT ALL!
We get along perfectly fine now!
I mean it's only been a week, so I guess it may be too early to say, but

IT IS WORKING OUT!

But, I was so sick of my room.
So, we rearranged the furniture and got a new closet so I can actually stowaway all the things I've gathered over the years. I am such a hoarder. :(

The only thing just TAUNTING ME everyday is the wall color.
I HATE IT.

I dreamt about changing it.

But, when I suggested that we repaint it, my parents were like ummm no. that's WAY too much work.
:'(

So, now I am looking for ways to change up the room--whether it be wallpaper, tapestry, fabric, canopy...
I DON'T CARE!
I NEED THE PEPTO BISMOL PINK OUT OF MY LIFE. NOW!

Ironic that I'm calling the list the "fun" list, since I am pretty stressed about it. But, I'm sure I'll learn to enjoy the process after I'm done with my finals. I'm pretty sure the real source of my stress is getting done with school.

Peace out (A town),

Hayon

Meltdown

Ok. Meltdown is a bit dramatic, but I guess Chris doesn't call me a drama queen for no reason.

I have been experiencing my quarter-life crisis for quite some time now, especially after I realized that I am graduating with no particular plans and no particular goals.

After every dreadful graduations, I knew where I was going--next stage of school. duh. But, I am now graduating college in a week, and I am freaking out.

I don't know how other people are handling their grad realization, but I am handling it TERRIBLY.

My poor bf did not see this one coming, lol. poor guy. oops!

And of course, I was supposed to be "studying" for my finals which I cannot emphasize how little I care about them (even though at the same time I am stressed out beyond belief for.. so what a freakin' conundrum), which means I was on facebook and pinterest. And I said in my head (because I am alone in my room and avoid talking to myself just to prevent the onset of insanity), "I can totally do this at some point" when I came across studded blouse. And by "do," I meant I can totally stud up my old jean dress which I realized could look "hip" now thanks to the vintage trend.

Then, it hit me.

I say that ALL THE TIME, annoyingly.

I was so consumed by everything else in life that I forgot to just do things. Or maybe I never did things.

Not to toot my own horn here, but I am CREATIVE! I am FUN! I HAVE SKILLS! I CAN DO THINGS!

So in my finals delirium, I am starting this blog.
Because I am SICK of not finishing what I start (other than education and movies and books), I will make a "bucket list" of some sort. I really don't want to call it that because things that will be mentioned aren't really my "dying-to-do" list. it's more like "oh let's give myself some credit for doing the little things."

So, my love for crossing things off the list and my newfound passion to start and finish something a little extraordinary, I'm going to do this.

First one on the list - Blogging about something cool!

With hope and doubt,

Hayon