This whole not doing anything must be getting to my head, especially with the state of duress I have been under for ummm.. TOO LONG!
Because a moment ago, a thought popped into my head--that I want to go back to school. WTF?
I can justify this ridiculous (or genius??) notion with a few facts:
1. It is quite late. 1 AM right now.
2. I may be going insane.
3. I am constantly stressed these days.
4. I am going through my post grad freak out phase!
5. quarter-life crisis.
6. I actually miss school.
7. I actually enjoy learning. Just not exams and what nots.
8. I am bored out of my freakin mind.
9. All my TV shows are ending. So, I have nothing to do now..
10. I may be going insane. like.. seriously.
11. I AM SO BORED.
12. I do not have a legitimate career right now.
13. I hate not knowing what my next step is. As a student, I always knew.
14. I am just freaking out. no surprise here! hah
15. Masters/Ph.D. cap and gown are freakin awesome.
16. I like feeling smart... and actually getting smarter haha.
But, yea. shit. I was pretty damn convinced until like an hour ago that I was DONE with education for a long time. But, maybe not?
I need more excitement in my life.
Slowly going insane,
Hayon
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17.5.12
11.5.12
Done #5 & 6: Graduate from college! & ask my fav prof for a hug! lol
Yes, I did my 4 years of school. Fun but mostly a drag. I was getting really sick and tired of reading and writing about topics that did not interest me enough.
But, I DID IT!
Amazingly, I got through college! hahaha many times I would cry to myself or to others about my hatred and doubt.
But, today was my graduation, and I am glad.
I first resisted going to the grad. One of the most hateful events, in my opinion, is graduation. I hate it.
But, my parents insisted that I go, so I did.
Lovely Jenn and Sunny came, too! haha so thankful! (:
But, I honestly wasn't that excited the morning of or the week leading up to the graduation.
I was nervous and anxious. I was like.. what's the point? omg I won't know anyone. omg what if I look stupid? and just so many, now I realize, useless worries.
When I got there, I found a friend that I knew from class yay!
And Katie and Andrew just hung out with me in the line. haha
But, before we entered the Shrine Auditorium, my heart was just racing.
Then, my favorite professor spoke (: <3 Lamy!
And people started getting called to the stage in this endless drone, then it was my turn!
By the time I stood up from my seat (even before that) I decided that I will ask Lamy for a hug. HAHA I knew it would be a weird thing maybe? But, I figured if not now, WHEN?
So, of course, this prof guy (that I don't even know), butchered my last name.. ugh. but that wasn't even a problem.
When I walked up to Lamy (our vice dean), he said, where have you been???
omggggggg he remembered me! hah!!! well, or not, but I'm just going to tell myself that he does.
and I immediately said CAN I HAVE A HUG? lol embarrassing, hindsight. but, he said of course! and gave me a hug. Then an awkward picture moment pursued, then I walked off, and Lamy said, Keep in touch! I said ok!!!!
lol
God. I am weird. But, I have some serious professor crushes. lol If you know me at all, you should know this.
Something about teachers/professors and their charisma, intelligence, and authority just GET TO ME.
anyways, then I was super happy that I got a hug and that I WAS OFFICIALLY A USC GRADUATE!
haha
stole from Jenn
Soon after, the graduation ended, and my family and friends and I went to Fogo de Chao and stuffed ourselves until we were KOed. (:
I am exhausted from multiple adrenaline rushes and just.. everything.
But, I'm still going to make more of my day!
craycray!
graduated,
Hayon
But, I DID IT!
Amazingly, I got through college! hahaha many times I would cry to myself or to others about my hatred and doubt.
But, today was my graduation, and I am glad.
I first resisted going to the grad. One of the most hateful events, in my opinion, is graduation. I hate it.
But, my parents insisted that I go, so I did.
Lovely Jenn and Sunny came, too! haha so thankful! (:
But, I honestly wasn't that excited the morning of or the week leading up to the graduation.
I was nervous and anxious. I was like.. what's the point? omg I won't know anyone. omg what if I look stupid? and just so many, now I realize, useless worries.
When I got there, I found a friend that I knew from class yay!
And Katie and Andrew just hung out with me in the line. haha
But, before we entered the Shrine Auditorium, my heart was just racing.
Then, my favorite professor spoke (: <3 Lamy!
And people started getting called to the stage in this endless drone, then it was my turn!
By the time I stood up from my seat (even before that) I decided that I will ask Lamy for a hug. HAHA I knew it would be a weird thing maybe? But, I figured if not now, WHEN?
So, of course, this prof guy (that I don't even know), butchered my last name.. ugh. but that wasn't even a problem.
When I walked up to Lamy (our vice dean), he said, where have you been???
omggggggg he remembered me! hah!!! well, or not, but I'm just going to tell myself that he does.
and I immediately said CAN I HAVE A HUG? lol embarrassing, hindsight. but, he said of course! and gave me a hug. Then an awkward picture moment pursued, then I walked off, and Lamy said, Keep in touch! I said ok!!!!
lol
God. I am weird. But, I have some serious professor crushes. lol If you know me at all, you should know this.
Something about teachers/professors and their charisma, intelligence, and authority just GET TO ME.
anyways, then I was super happy that I got a hug and that I WAS OFFICIALLY A USC GRADUATE!
haha
Soon after, the graduation ended, and my family and friends and I went to Fogo de Chao and stuffed ourselves until we were KOed. (:
I am exhausted from multiple adrenaline rushes and just.. everything.
But, I'm still going to make more of my day!
craycray!
graduated,
Hayon
10.5.12
Fun #9: Go karaoke
ok, this isn't mindblowing or anything. and it's SO very asian of me.
But, I do love me some karaoke. lol
Singing seriously relaxes me more than anything in the world, but i'm not fond of singing in open spaces.
And with just the sheer amount of stress I've been getting from someone's death and job search and graduation and just other things, I need to be less anxious and stressed.
The only good thing about being stressed is that I have no appetite lol which leads to weight loss! hah!
But, yea, i'm going karaoke-ing with a friend tonight. stokedddd.
(:
Tomorrow is my graduation. not stoked at all.
fuck.
ever so anxious,
Hayon
But, I do love me some karaoke. lol
Singing seriously relaxes me more than anything in the world, but i'm not fond of singing in open spaces.
And with just the sheer amount of stress I've been getting from someone's death and job search and graduation and just other things, I need to be less anxious and stressed.
The only good thing about being stressed is that I have no appetite lol which leads to weight loss! hah!
But, yea, i'm going karaoke-ing with a friend tonight. stokedddd.
(:
Tomorrow is my graduation. not stoked at all.
fuck.
ever so anxious,
Hayon
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